Western Union?!?...Western Crap is all it is...

Here's a question for you...
Ever feel like just hiding away and crying for a good while?!? And not from just one thing, like "oh she said no, but i like her so much" or "my teacher yelled at me.." etc.. i dunno, whatever things make you sad, but i'm talkin' a little deeper than that, like you feel something in your very core and it's aching. core, i mean the deepest place, the place where you are made up, the part of you that defines everything you are, everything you live by and everything you want to become. Where your dreams are held, where your life holds meaning. And at a point you look inside and doubt almost everything in that spot... You wonder why you are doing what you are doing, wonder why you are where you are, wonder what you should be doing, and really if the best is out there for you. Really all you are holding onto is that God is good. Infact, most people don't even have that to hold on to cause they don't know that. And i guess that's why in all this questioning and this wondering why, this wanting to run away and cry, i still have a sense of peace, i still know that God is good. so many people thing that God is elusive, but it's really just us hiding and eluding Him. A good friend used to say all the time "God doesn't turn His back on me, i'm just stupid and turn my back on Him." ...without calling oneself stupid that's a pretty damn good point. God won't turn His back on me, He loves me to much. Sounds almost cocky doesn't it. But it's revelation of God's love. I don't fully understand it, and some days i'd swear to you all (all zero of you reading this) that God's completely turned His back on me. But like i mentioned the other day, out of nowhere i get a "how are you doing"...and i know that God is looking over me, i know He's got his ever watchful eye on me, out of LOVE, not as a disciplinarian. So rest assured self, God's there beside you, you just need to keep realizing that. If He was out to get you, out to rough you up, He'd of done that a good chunk of time ago, that's for damned sure.

here's another good one... ever spend 3 hours in a Western Union trying to send money to Nigeria?!?! before i could've answered "Nope, and don't ever plan on it". Well if there's anything good about that, i could put it on my resume because that's what i did today. Thanx for coming out, geez. money problems, wrong numbers, bad exchange rates etc.. makes for an incredibly hectic afternoon.
So i walk in with USD, fill a form to send it away, the lady says "can't send US to nigeria, they want canadian, then THEY exchange it" (sleezy way to skim a little off the top using a brutal exchange rate) . So i say, i need xxxxCAD, how much US will that cost me?!? well she gives me a figure higher than the CAD amount i've asked for. I'm like "excuse me?..how is that possible, i know the USD has come down, but we're still not up on them". "i don't understand sir" "IDIOT..." "ok, here's how it works, i have xxxxUSD, i need xxxxCAD, HOW MUCH USD is it going to take to get me the xxxxCAD i need?!?!?!" "ok, just a second..."
i don't have time for the insane amounts of seconds this conversation has allready taken.
so i make the Western Union people sound dumb. Well, not far from that, but they were very nice about the whole ordeal and did help me out with my transaction, so kudos to them right...

ok, i'm out of here...stay tuned for tomorrow when i rant about the idea of a company based on peoples lack of being able to budget. dirty, just dirty...