Wednesday, November 02, 2005

where does it come from.

GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD!!!!!!!!!

that's a cry.....my cry...where are you..what are you doing...

it seems to me that life takes more turns than any man can follow. Yet, when everything seems so distant and so distressing in that very last moment, that very final hour, that time when you feel like all of life is caving in and falling around you.....BAMM, God shows up for that moment in your life and changes everything...

God, this is my heart to you.
I long for you more than life itself. I dare not think what life would be like if i didn't have your hand on my life. I dare not think what i would face in every moment of everyday if your hand of protection and hand of mercy wasn't on my life.
I need your grace, i need your peace. I need you. Everything about you, everything you are, every breath i brethe neeeds to carry your presence.....i need to breath you in, i need to feel you more than i have ever felt you before, i need to be sustained by you, i need to fall more in love with you....not even more, i have NO idea what falling in love with you truly feels like. Make it a reality in my life. make it a reality in what i see when i wake up...where are you...who are you...what are you doing, today, tomorrow, in the days to come...what are you going to do, where are you taking me, where are you taking this world.
all the pain, all the disaster around, it fades when i feel you...it fades when i see your face. what's it truly mean to be in your presence..what's it mean to truly be in you...i want to be in you...be in your heart, be in your sould...be in your spirit....take me away....

this man, this human body that i inhabit...it's not me, my core is the eternal life that flows within, it's the eternal existence of something i don't even understand, someone i have barely been exposed to, someone i feel i haven't even been introduced to yet. I feel him, i sense his presence when i find myself in situations where he's more alive than this cardboard exterior. You've made me more than a man, you've made me more than a shell God....aquaint me with my spirit, my true me. I abandon all, i put it on he line because there is nothing worth living for but love, but power, but that real, tangible spiritual world that we're so fucking asleep to.

WAKE ME UP oh God....wake me up....my life has become dead, has become dulll, my eyes wide shut, my ears blazingly closed...my senses stifled because of a world dead around me.

there is hope, there is passion inside of you, inside of me, feel it boil within.
DON'T think you don't have it in you, don't think you have nothing inside......YOU HAVE IT IN YOU, you have more than you know. God is begging and longing and begging and longing and begging and longing for you to be alive, for you to come alive, for you to wake up and smell life like it was supposed to be smelled, to see the world like it's supposed to be seen. darkness will not prevail, it can't, the story wasn't writtne this way...that's right...written..the story is done, we're just living it out...but it's a story we have a part to play in...it's a story we have the right to step up to the challenges in, it's a story we have to fight for. God wrote the characters, wrote the key players, created the existence of a world in need of YOU...in need of what's inside of you.....find it....don't wait, don't hide, don't settle for what you see.....don't let the church blind you into thinking that what we have now is what we get....hell no...what we have now is not even close to what we are supposed to have...what we have now is a feeble attempt to the power God has....


"GREATER THINGS WILL YOU DO..............................."

what kind of King, what kind of God promises that to his followers...what kind of King tells his sons, his people that they will do greater things, more things and see a greater working of His command on the earth. This is not our home...it's time to call in the Kingdom of God...time to call in the Kingdom as it is supposed to be. The story that has been played out thus far is NOT what we're subject to....

"ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE.........................."

it's in you....strength, wisdom, power, handed down from the very thrown of God.....handed to you....ask for it....ask for him to rule your life. Be a subject of the King, join the fight that's worth fighting for more than anything you've seen to date.....get ready...become a subject of the true King....his thrown, his Kingdom is at hand...it is at hand...


My Father...Heaven is yours...
Hail to the Mighty King.
Let Your Kingdom come,
Let Your Will be done.
On earth because it is already done in Heaven.

Please oh Lord, Sustain me, be my sustinance.
Forgive me, for i have sinned, i have turned from You.
My choice i now make to forgive those who have wounded me,
Those who have hurt me, You are forgiven.

Protect me oh Lord,
Deliver me, Free me,
Evil will not overtake me, for you have lead me from it.

TO YOU BE ALL THE GLORY,

You are the King of all, your Kingdom is here....Open my eyes......

This life i do not know how to live....
But damn, i'm gonna trust that you will lead me ...and Free me as we walk together..