WHOA

That was a pretty harsh last 'post' i made huh?...geez...
why didn't someone come up to me, slap me and yell in my face "HEY, get your head on straight"...
So, i'm at work today and it's still kind of difficult cause i don't know what my 'job description' is, and so i'm struggling with wanting to be busy, wanting to get work done and wanting to actually work. I don't like being paid and not having anything to do. Or not that i don't have anything to do, i just dont know what it is that i'm supposed to do right now. I haven't been given a job, i've been given a title. As of yet anyways. I mean, sure we've discussed the sort of "you're in charge of the database and ..." well actually i think that's about it. Which isn't anyones fault at all, i just can't stand that i'm sitting there trying to think of work for myself to do because i don't know what it is i should be doing.

The other part that is frustrating is that this project that is in place, the implimentation of a new program to replace about 6 programs the company is currently using; well the project started i'm guessing a month or so ago, so certain people are involved in different things, and i've jsut come on the seen and been named a pretty big title as it pertains to this project. Yet, i've missed the last month, haven't had a good catch up session and don't have a job description, and i've put 6 days of work in so far. So i'm a touch frustrated, but i know it's going to even out.

Went golfing with the boss this afternoon. That was a treat in of itself, good day for golf, absolutely beautiful. However, the course was incredibly busy, it took us 3 and a half hours to play 11 hours and by that point there wasn't much point in continuing, so 11 holes is where we ended it. which kind of sux cause i was just getting into it. The first 5 holes were rough, shot a 10 on a par 5, a 7 on a par 4 and a couple double boge's, no pars and ended up with a 55 on the first 9. OUCH.... hole ten was a par 3, i got par...hole 11 was a par 4, i shot 5...was pickin' it up at that point, but we caught up to people again and it was starting to get cold cause it was 7:30 and it was just no point to continue...so we called it a night. to much waiting in the cold wind. If there was no one in front of us we could've flown through the holes, but there were 3 groups ahead of us all walking. so slow.
This is how bad it was, on hole 3 or 4, not sure exactly which one, but we got there and there were 3 groups infront of us at the tee, and a group walking down the fairway and a group walking onto the green of the hole...including us that's 7 groups of people playing/waiting on that hole....WAY TO MUCH...

ok, so the real reason i wanted to post today was this...i totally dig Avril Lavigne. I think she's absolutely amazing. I don't know if she's got talent or not, but i think she's freakin great. Not sure why i had to say that...but there was a Much More Music "Profile" on her just about half an hour ago, anyways, i just think she's really good looking, and as much as i shouldn't admit this, i like her music...

so, i'm not necessarily an 'avril' fan, but i do think she's freakin' amazing, and i'd marry that girl in a second...